Sigh of Relief

I feel like, even though it is a blizzard outside, going out and dancing in the streets. It would be a slight understatement to say that of my seven semesters at the U, this fall 2010 semester was the most difficult. Tre had just moved away, I was carrying a very full load including classes, work at Archibald's during it's busiest season plus being the executive director of UPC. I was stressed the entire semester, because I just wanted to do well. After finals week was over, I felt relieved--I felt as though I had done well on my 5 exams and even if I hadn't, it was over and I could be happy about that. Above all of that, Tre was coming home! He arrived early morning on December 19th and left late afternoon the day after Christmas. Honestly, one of the best weeks of my life.

When Tre was first deciding he was going to leave, I told him that if he chose to transfer, we would be breaking up. I just didn't think we could do it, but we are! One semester down, and I feel good about our relationship. I actually think that it was just what we needed, in a relationship that lasts that long it may be easy to get complacent, but now we have found a new appreciation for one another. I love that boy so much and we had such a good time over the week.

Christmas, per usual, was fantastic!! I love this time of year, just spending time with family and friends. Plus, my wonderful boss gave me the entire week off so that I could maximize the amount of time with my family and with Tre. I got everything I wanted and more.

The morning Tre had to leave, I was very sad and cried throughout sacrament meeting and as I took him to the airport. But I am grateful for this opportunity that he has to get his schooling paid for and to do something he loves so much! He makes me very proud while he is gone and I know that in the end, it will all be worth it.

Then, it was back to reality. I have been working every day this week and cleaning up the Christmas aftermath. Plus, I have been trying to work up the courage to look at my grades. I felt really good about my finals week performance, but as time carried on I started doubting myself--maybe I didn't do as well as I thought?

Right now I am supposed to be at my friend Alyx's wedding, but due to the horrible blizzard outside, I decided it was safer to stay home. Only problem? I am bored. The boredom got to me! I decided to check my grades and.... I got an A in anatomy!! That class is very difficult and requires more attention than most jobs and somehow, I pulled it off. I am pretty proud of myself. Because, you see, in order to get an A, I had to get a nearly perfect score on my final (only missing 5 points) and it happened.
Man, life is good.

Tre and I, eating at Teppanyaki. Yum!

After, A group of us went to see the lights at Temple Square--so beautiful!

My Grandpa. I love him so much. You can always count on him for a good laugh :)

I love these ladies so much.

Oh, the other bright spot in my life? This little bun in the oven that I canNOT wait for his arrival!! 101 more days :)

:)

Day Twenty Five

What Would Be Found In Your Bag

1. A lot of space --> I carry a semi-large bag with not much in it.
2. Wallet (IDs, gift cards, receipts and credit cards)
3. Lip Gloss --> Minty preferably from Bath and Body Works or Victoria's Secret
4. Mints --> Gum repulses me
5. Couple of Pens
6. My car keys

Day Twenty Four

A Letter To Your Parents

Dear Mom and Dad,

I want you to know how much I love you. You have always, since the time I was little, provided the greatest example to me. I am the woman I am today because I have had parents like you. I often think to myself that I am very lucky to have been given parents who are so accepting, forgiving and loving as I have. Most kids are scared of their parents, but when something bad happens to me, the first thing I want to to do is run home to tell you because I know you'll listen, care, and give me the best possible advice.

I know odds were stacked against you, getting married so young, but you got through everything...together. That is something I really admire in the two of you and hope to emulate some day with my own husband and children.

You are both great providers and have helped me emotionally, physically and financially so that I could have everything I have ever wanted. I have been successful due large part to the two of you. Which is also what pushes me to keep going, because I know that I owe you to see things through. I have been given every opportunity and therefore, I have no excuse to not reach my full potential. I want to make you proud as you have done for me.

People always tell me that I am spoiled, I smile and say "I know". I am not a spoiled brat however, there is a difference. I know this because I am very grateful for everything given to me. I don't want either of you to think that the little things don't matter, because they do. Little notes of encouragement, help with assignments or activities, or just an "I love you" at the end of the day means everything to me. I thank Heavenly Father every night for the two of you. I wouldn't be where I am today, without you.

There is so much more to say, but I have homework. :)

Don't take these words lightly: I Love You.

Day Twenty Three

Something You Crave For A Lot

Day Twenty Two

What Makes You Different Form Anyone Else?

I am girly, yet tough.
I am compassionate, yet blunt.
I am pretty, yet a total scrounge.
I am loyal, but I don't give second chances.

I don't take anyone's crap, and I will fight to defend myself against anyone.
I value family above anything else; they will always be my first choice.
I am very self-motivated; no one ever has to tell me to get my work done.
I am very practical and am constantly thinking about the future. I won't do something today that will ruin my tomorrow.
I am fiesty.
I like blood and gore.
I am confident; I don't care what people think about me.
I don't embarass easily.
I am brave.
I am highly organized, except when it comes to my room or car.
I am funny.
I am determined; I strive for the things I want most in life.

I think all these things combined make me different from anyone else.

Day Twenty One

Holy Crap! Can you believe it's already October?!

anyway....
A Picture Of Something That Makes You Happy

There are many things that I could have posted about, but when I first read today's topic, one thing popped into my head:

This is my baby! Well, not MY baby, but Kristin and Brandon's soon-to-be bebe. I have been begging them since the got off their honeymoon (over four years ago) to have a baby. They always told me no. On August 6, I slept over at Kristin's house (ya know, what sisters do) and we were looking at proffessional photography sites-something that we both LOVE- and pictures of babies started showing up. I whined yet again and Kristin replied with "if you want a baby so bad, have one yourself!" (REAL mature, Kristin). Then on August 8th, Brandon and Kristin came over to "talk to my dad", but he was caught up at church. They had other obligations that day so they had to leave and said they would be back. I had to go do UPC stuff later that night. Kristin text me and said "Where did you go?" I told her I had office work to do and wouldn't be home til really late. She told me I sucked. I agreed.

My mom then text me and asked me to pick up a crockpot from Kristin's on my way home. I told her to tell Kristin to leave it on the front porch because I wouldn't be home until about 2 am. I stopped at Kristin's house and walked up to the porch to get the crock pot and attached to it was this note:

I was so excited, but sad at the same time that I had missed everyone finding out together. And sad that it was 2am and I couldn't talk to anyone about my excitement. I cried.

Ever since then, all we can all think about is BABY. We have already started a box of gifts that we have slowly started buying. Can't wait for April 10th!!

Day Twenty

Someone You See Yourself Marrying

Well seeing on how we have been together for almost seven (!) years, I'm gonna have to go with Tre

We met in Ms. Paredas' fourth grade class. I had a little girl crush on him until.... him and his friend Dennis made fun of my lips and told me I had "fish lips" (common when I was that age). I distinctly remember saying, "I don't like you anymore Tre". And his friend, Dennis said, "see! I told you she liked you". I replied back with a witty remark: "I meant just as a friend! I don't even like you at all anymore!"

Then, honestly, I don't remember seeing or thinking about Tre for many years. His friends hated me and my friends in 5th-8th grade, because we thought we were so smart and cool (which we were!). Then in 9th grade, my school started "team fridays". Because we both had last names that start with S, we were on the same team and he was the ONLY person I knew in there so we became friends. I had another boyfriend at the time, but I started to have a crush on Tre, yet again. I remember writing Tre a note (cuz that was the cool thing to do!) asking him to go to the Halloween Dance, but only if he liked me back. He ended up coming and we danced a couple of times. Our group of mutual friends were just watching us and you know how you just basically spin in circles while you dance at that age? Well, anytime Tre would be facing them they would tell him to ask me out. On the last slow song of the dance, Tre asked me out and I said Yes. First order of Business? Go home and call my other boyfriend to break up with him (scandelous!).

We've had our problems along the way, but in the end we have always ended up together.

Currently, Tre lives in Missouri finish his schooling and to play basketball. It's been the hardest thing that we have had to do in this relationship, but I know if we can get through this then we can make it through anything.

He can bring out the best in me; he believes in my whole-heartedly and makes me feel as though nothing is out of reach for me. Whenever I have a bad day, I call Tre and he can help me through whatever I may be facing at the time. I don't really like talking about my relationship, because I feel like people are so cynical and because we have had problems in the past, they expect and hope to see us fail. But Tre and I both live to prove people wrong. That's what we plan on doing.

I love him. My family loves him. If we were to end up together, I would be perfectly content with that.

I love who I am when I'm with him and only hope that I do the same for him. I know that if we are meant to be, the Lord will provide the way and there is no need to worry about it.